22’s from Soul has become one of my favourite characters ever; she made me have a massive epiphany about my own depression and anxiety

Holy shit man. I’m a guy in his early 20s, been depressed and anxious since I was maybe around 14. Constantly worrying about everything, feeling like I’m not good enough, that life is meaningless, there’s no point in trying cause the world’s shitty and I’m shitty and there’s nothing I’m all that good at, and never will be, and nobody will want to stick around someone so uninteresting so fuck it, whats the point in being alive anyway?I never thought a fucking Pixar film could sum up how that all feels, but 22 might just be my favourite Pixar character ever. Not that I didn’t think Pixar could pull it off, but more I didn’t think anyone could have expressed it (some such as Bojack have done a great job too to be fair). And not only did they express it, they done what I thought was impossible; gave me an answer that makes sense to me.Life isn’t about following goals constantly like Joe, or chasing love, or worrying all day everyday, or letting self doubt creep in, or wallowing, or worrying about your fucking purpose. Its not about being caught up in your head. It’s about just living. Which is fucking hard (22 spent millennia dealing with it if she really was the 22nd soul ever lmfao, something I believe would happen). I struggle to even enjoy the moment to moment a lot because I’m so caught up in my head and my fears constantly. Even knowing what the answer doesn’t make it easy to change all these years of not enjoying life.I’ve come away from Pixar films before bawling my eyes out, but I’ve never come away from one, hell, any film, feeling a kind of contentedness and like life is worth living. Everything just feels like it’s gonna be okay for once. I didn’t cry much at the end (I did during the trip into 22’s brain which was way too relatable for me), but I did smile a lot. But I’m just sitting here after watching it feeling so content with life. I just need to focus on enjoying every little moment. Sounds cliché, and I’ve heard it a thousand times until it rung hollow to my cynical mind, but that’s just like the movie too; 22’s smart as hell, and knows everything to the point of cynicism; it’s not until she actually gives in and just lets herself experience things firsthand that she escapes that cycle.So fuck it. I’m gonna truly take this message to heart and try enjoy every moment. I know for a fact that’s not gonna be easy, I’ll always be the type to get caught up in my head, but I’ve never actually tried it hard enough. I’m gonna at least make that effort. This genuinely feels like a life changing epiphany for me, I feel like a weight is off my shoulders having thought about it and accepted it. via /r/movies https://ift.tt/3pPqX9N